I've been feeling a little melancholy over the past few days, mostly
due to the passage of the anti-gay initiatives around the country. I
love being married and having a son. I love that my parents and four
siblings are close by, ensuring plenty of loving arms for Nathaniel and
support for me and my husband. I love the large extended family I have
here, relationships built up over decades of living in the same area. I
have family in all senses of the word: a husband, a child, in-laws,
siblings, parents, cousins and friends. I love it.
I hate that so many people would deny these same joys to gays and lesbians.
Perhaps my boy knew I was sad today. He was lying in my arms after
nursing, gazing up peacefully at me with his deep blue eyes. I smiled
at him. No matter how terrible the world may be, Nathaniel makes me
smile.
And he smiled back, the first time he's ever smiled back. He grinned in
that open-mouthed, toothless, and fiercely enthusiastic way that babies
have, putting his whole little body and soul into that moment.
What a moment! I think maybe heaven opened up just a little for me.
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What a beautiful and loving person you are. I am so happy that you share yourself with us on your blog. I am dying to see a photo of Nathaniel. Is there any chance of that?
So sweet those moments are...JAE
Yes, it was a wonderful, amazing moment!
Denise, I've been meaning to put a photo up for awhile -- I'll get it up eventually, I promise!
T, I just read your referenced "joys" entry. Wow. I knew I liked you. I look at the photo of you and Nathaniel and I see deep beauty. I, too, wish that were accessible to all. Hate is the only true ugliness in the world. I am so proud to "know" you.
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